Hi there,
So I have been struggling with the vice of impurity and have been making an effort to grow in the virtue of purity. In doing this I'm also trying to form my conscience so that I have a better understanding of the state of my soul. This is in regards to particular happenings that I have that I will describe below:
I'll be rather specific: I google searched something knowing that I would encounter impure images. I acted on the compulsion of curiosity. I know I should not have even acted on this, I should have rejected and ignored it but I didn't. Unfortunately I went ahead with the search and did find the impure images. I lingered on these pictures and was saying over in my mind "I shouldn't be looking at this...I shouldn't be looking at this..." I lingered a little more than closed the window, turning away from it. I didn't want to offend my God.
My confusion is this: Have I committed a mortal sin by knowingly placing my self in an occasion of sin and lingering on those images? I know I shouldn't have and did turn away from them. I did experience some sort of arousal.
Any advice would be appreciated. I've tried to be as descriptive as I can without deliberating about the material I searched...suffice it to be impure in all circumstances.
God love you and thank you :)
So I have been struggling with the vice of impurity and have been making an effort to grow in the virtue of purity. In doing this I'm also trying to form my conscience so that I have a better understanding of the state of my soul. This is in regards to particular happenings that I have that I will describe below:
I'll be rather specific: I google searched something knowing that I would encounter impure images. I acted on the compulsion of curiosity. I know I should not have even acted on this, I should have rejected and ignored it but I didn't. Unfortunately I went ahead with the search and did find the impure images. I lingered on these pictures and was saying over in my mind "I shouldn't be looking at this...I shouldn't be looking at this..." I lingered a little more than closed the window, turning away from it. I didn't want to offend my God.
My confusion is this: Have I committed a mortal sin by knowingly placing my self in an occasion of sin and lingering on those images? I know I shouldn't have and did turn away from them. I did experience some sort of arousal.
Any advice would be appreciated. I've tried to be as descriptive as I can without deliberating about the material I searched...suffice it to be impure in all circumstances.
God love you and thank you :)