I'm Sorry...

I was cleaning my apartment...i used bleach and the smell reminded me so much of my childhood, but not the great parts...It reminded me of when i was scared and sleepless because I thought the Devil was attacking me, it reminded me of the anxiety attacks that would cripple me and keep me inside the house.

I've spent this past year getting back to God and learning Who Jesus is and falling in love again with his Holy Church...But i've missed the past two sunday masses and have returned to sinning in other aspects of my life.

Today i was reminded what i am without God, and how easily those strange and miserable feelings can creep back into my life, and it put me on my butt.

I'm sorry God...I have come to know you these past months, and i have come to believe in you again...you saved my life from myself...and I've been lettin you down..."Depart from me Lord, for I am a sinful man."...

It is terrifying for me...to see how small i am...I'm 22 years old and needless to say ...if you were to see me you'd never believe that i went through these things...but i do..it helps me to come here and just say exactly what i want...

Could i please ask for your prayers for a mule headed man who doesnt seem to get it??...

thank you...