It just sucks me in like a magnet. Like Frodo in Lord of the Rings with the Ring.
When I want to pray for something, I figure go to the devil, since he will answer it immediately, but I will be damned. But my material desires keep dragging me there... I've had compulsions to sell my soul, and worried I did sell my soul after I despaired, thinking I blasphemed the Holy Spirit due to doubts about Jesus' origins and compulsions to call Him satanic. I don't mean it. I sold my soul for sexual changes, I was struggling with my sexuality and now I feel hetero.
What do I do? I don't want to call satan LORD anymore. That belongs to God alone.
When I want to pray for something, I figure go to the devil, since he will answer it immediately, but I will be damned. But my material desires keep dragging me there... I've had compulsions to sell my soul, and worried I did sell my soul after I despaired, thinking I blasphemed the Holy Spirit due to doubts about Jesus' origins and compulsions to call Him satanic. I don't mean it. I sold my soul for sexual changes, I was struggling with my sexuality and now I feel hetero.
What do I do? I don't want to call satan LORD anymore. That belongs to God alone.